STORM!!! Amazing Capture

This was captured on place at Springtown Oklahoma on May 9, 2006

Set Yourself Free

It is good to remember that one of our goals in life is to not be perfect. We often lose track of this aspiration. When we make mistakes, we think that we are failing or not measuring up. But if life is about experimenting, experiencing, and learning, then to be imperfect is a prerequisite. Life becomes much more interesting once we let go of our quest for perfection and aspire for imperfection instead.This doesn't mean that we don't strive to be our best. We simply accept that there is no such thing as perfection-especially in life. All living things are in a ceaseless state of movement. Even as you read this, your hair is growing, your cells are dying and being reborn, and your blood is moving through your veins. Your life changes more than it stays the same. Perfection may happen in a moment, but it will not last because it is an impermanent state. Trying to hold on to perfection or forcing it to happen causes frustration and unhappiness. In spite of this, many of us are in the habit of trying to be perfect. One way to nudge ourselves out of this tendency is to look at our lives and notice that no one is judging us to see whether or not we are perfect. Sometimes, perfectionism is a holdover from our childhood-an ideal we inherited from a demanding parent. We are adults now, and we can choose to let go of the need to perform for someone else's approval. Similarly, we can choose to experience the universe as a loving place where we are free to be imperfect. Once we realize this, we can begin to take ourselves less seriously and have more fun. Imperfection is inherent to being human. By embracing your imperfections, you embrace yourself.

1:39 a.m.

I’m working on my side-line trip on the net. Talking about “brain torture” and I’m still doing it. Our weekend was alright, no exciting event happened but it’s cool. We stayed home, we relaxed, no phone calls, no computer, no interruption… just us…Shaun, me and our brats. We watched few movies we rented, talk, had a few cups of coffee then in the afternoon we took a nap. Then we went to his Dad’s place around 7:00p.m. to greet him a happy birthday. Chris took us to Dinner at Mi Cosina (My Kitchen). The food was not that great but it was alright.

Haahhhaaaay… nothing special really… but hey… at least it’s updated…. Hehehe.

Talk to you all later… by the way, I changed my name on my friendster account… it’s AUBREY noe.

~new I guess~

I’ve been drinking straight every night for almost 2 weeks already. It actually helps me relax and ease whatever pain I am having. It makes me feel numb. I like to be that way sometimes… not caring what other people thinks or say. I’m also back with my smoking habit for almost a month now. Hey… it helped me lose weight, he-he. I lost few pounds actually but my jelly belly loves me… grrr.

It’s been a hard time for me for the past few weeks. And I’ve been trying to put the puzzles together. I thank God for everything… it’s a long story but let God take care of everything… I trust Him.

Now I’m so mad… mad that I can’t do anything about it but to shut up. I don’t know… I guess I’ll just have to support my husband. I can’t understand why they’re taking advantage on him. Can’t they see that he’s working his ass so hard to make them rich? Bullshit! Enough is enough… I hate to see him not being happy anymore. Leave him alone for crying out loud.